I have to change my profile info..my my how I have grown in the Lord ( that didnt sound humble I know   and Oprah is SOOOOO not my hero

A year gone by

A new life begun

Missing friends of old, making new friends

Working, worshipping, praying

Growing, reaching, loving

Crying, painful, rejoyce

Preparing, perservering, lonely

Fulfilled, selfish, greedy,

PRIDEFUL

Releasing, searching, discovering 

Back, never gone, accepting

JESUS

Humble, study, share, teach,

LEARN

Doubt, doubt, doubt

JESUS

Naive, Shy, Unwise

Love, acceptance, small steps

HIS WORD

Rocking out, lifting hands, singing as if knowone was watching

Laughing, being hurt, betrayal

OVERFLOW

Church, smiles, potlucks

ACCEPTANCE OF SELF

A year gone by

A life continued

Letting go of self made rules and regulations

JESUS

.......It's been too long since I have written...I just wanted to share the feelings and experiences I have went through this past year

Matthew 6:7-13

Francois Fenelon, a seventeenth-century Roman Catholic Frenchman, said this about prayer:

Tell God all that is in your heart, as one unloads one’s heart, its pleasures and its pain, to a dear friend. Tell Him your troubles, that He may comfort you; tell Him your joys, that He may sober them; tell Him your longings, that He may purify them; tell Him your dislikes, that He may help you to conquer them; talk to Him of your temptations, that He may shield you from them; show Him the wounds of your heart, that He may heal them; lay bare your indifference to good, your depraved tastes for evil, your instability. Tell Him how self-love makes you unjust to others, how vanity tempts you to be insincere, how pride disguises you to yourself and others.

If you thus pour out all your weaknesses, needs, troubles, there will be no lack of what to say. You will never exhaust the subject. It is continually being renewed. People who have no secrets from each other never want for subject of conversation. They do not weigh their words, for there is nothing to be held back; neither do they seek for something to say. They talk out of the abundance of the heart, without consideration they say just what they think.

Blessed are they who attain to familiar, unreserved intercourse with God.

Taken from Charles R. Swindoll, Day by Day with Charles Swindoll (Nashville: W Publishing Group, 2000). Copyright © 2000 by Charles R. Swindoll, Inc. All rights reserved. Used by permission.

People Watching

The Lord humbled me this morning by reminding me that he created people, all different shapes, sizes, thoughts, ideas and he created me. When I see pictures of a resemblance of Jesus he is so gorgeous and shining bright, but is this what he really looked like? Was he so attractive that he stuck out in a crowd? The beauty of a person comes from within. Now there are those that are pretty/handsome (Brad Pitt, Haley Berry, The Rock, okay...I'll stop... Denzel in Training Day..okay enough  or what the world would consider beautiful. But God thinks that we all are beautiful, because he created us and he did not create junk.  Who am I to say that someone is not, or in times when I am depressed I say that I'm not or call myself all types of non-flattering descriptions.

When Judas led the soliders to get Jesus, they didn't even know what he looked like, Judas had to kiss Jesus to identify who he was.  Jesus looked like he was apart of the crowd, but he was set apart in so many other ways, just as he commands us to do.  It reminds me of that song " What if God was one of us, just a slob like one of us, just a stranger on the bus, tryin to make his way home"  

I was watching a cashier today, he didn't look up at anyone, he didn't smile, nothing. Now he might have been having a bad day but what if he looks that way everyday. I can't imagine life without laughter or smiles. I have so many people in my life who make me laugh, make me smile what if he does not have anyone? The Lord created me to edify and praise him, to share the gospel with those I meet and someday's it is soooooooo overwhelming to see the work that has to be done.

I just have to pray and then pray that the Lord give me direction on what actions to take. I pray for the cashier, for my close friend who is going through a tough time in her marriage, for the youth that are trying to be young in the Lord and not the world, for those of us that are young in heart and are trying to serve the Lord in a world of non believers.  I hope this does not sound like rambling, I guess my point is to watch people sometimes, not to make fun of them ( which I am guilty of) or to see who has on a cute outfit, but just watch people.  

What you see will amaze you, when you talk with someone look them in there right eye. Do you see sadness, joy, fear, and then smile at them. That smile or encouraging word might be the only mice thing that person has received in a long time from someone or even at all.  When you end a conversation with someone, tell them "God Bless you or I pray you have a blessed day today."     

Sorry for the rambling...hope it made sense.

I praise God for his love and kindness. This morning I was just thinking about how before I became a Christian I always felt uncomfortable, uneasy, nervous, always worrying. But now, I have such a peace in my life that it hits me sometimes that the old feeling is gone.

This is a major answer to prayer because I have prayed for the Lord to bring peace into my life. Now, don't get me wrong I am still a sinner and in know way am I perfect, but to God be the glory because I know he is there for me. I am going through such a growing period, which will never really stop growing, ever since I got baptized and it is very uncomfortable at times but it is very rewarding as well. The reward that I rejoice in is knowing that my relationship with the Lord is growing every day and that when I see my sin it grieves my heart and I seek God's face on how to fix it.

The answers do not always come right away, but when they do I am so humbled and can only say "Thank you Lord".

To God be the glory.